wow.

Just found out about 2 months ago that my 12 year old brother has macular degeneration, an eyesight deterioration that is normally found in seniors. What this means is that he is going blind and there is no cure. While I try to sort out in my head what kind of life my baby brother is going to have, I find myself asking God, why? I have always been so convinced that everything happens for a reason but I have to admit that I am starting to waiver. I am starting to wonder if I will ever understand why things happen to my family the way that they do or if I will always be in the dark. And speaking of being in the dark, is there a light at the end of this tunnel?

I am so angry and confused; so bitter and so sad that God allows this to happen to my family who have done nothing but love and serve Him. I pray that the Lord changes my heart because I am not sure how much more of this I can take.

There is also a television series on Showtime which is even more fascinating because I don’t have to imagine what things look like, what the places they visit look like. (although there is something to be said for getting to use my imagination as an adult) The show last night was incredible, they filmed an Iraqi 20 something, that lives in America and travels around the Midwest and the South asking people why they voted for the war in Iraq. I was so surprised by the answers people gave. I am shocked that many people in this country live in such ignorance. I would encourage anyone seeking truth, seeking beauty in life and in human kind to give this show a chance either on the radio or on TV.

umm I don’t even know what to say.

The following are a list of my favorites. 

1. Kicking and Screaming (Noah Baumbach dir./writer)- 5 guys graduate college and spend the entire length of the movie trying to determine what to do next and where they went wrong.
2. Before Sunrise (Richard Linklater dir/writer)-2 twenty somethings meet on a train in Europe and decide to get off the train and explore Vienna discussing philosophy and falling in love.
3. Before Sunset (Richard Linklater dir/writer)-Sequal to Before Sunrise, this time the two meet up again 10 years later and determine that not much has changed and they are still thinking of one another.
4. Waking Life (Richard Linklater dir/writer)-Brilliantly animated story involving a young man in a dream meeting different people and discussing the meaning of life. 
5. Dazed and Confused (guess?–Richard Linklater dir/writer)-This one follows kids graduating from high school, great one-liners, excellent soundtrack and an all around good time.

Holy crap this rollercoaster was an adventure.  I am surprised i didn’t barf all over the place.  Check it out next time you are at Magic Mountain in CA.

So my only complaint is the owner. She is so snarky and micromanages the staff so badly that it really ruins the experience. My suggestion would be to sit outside, that way you don’t have to hear her bitch at her staff and listen to her inability to provide her customers with service. Definately go for breakfast, and maybe even lunch and then go for a walk along the beach you will thank me later.