Posted by ambolino | Posted in weight loss | Posted on 16-06-2010
So here I am again, fat, tired and out of shape. I got into such good shape last year, well, good for me anyway. I lost 30 lbs and kept it off for most of the year. Then Tahoe hit, I was lonely and stuck indoors for 6 months, a cocktail for disaster. So here I am back in Santa Barbara and I have put on 10lbs from the 30 I lost. 1olbs isn’t the end of the world, but it ain’t pretty either. I am starting to not fit into my clothes again, starting to give up.
But then it hit me, my life, my happiness and my husband’s happiness is affected by me not trying to get into shape. I know it’s not impossible, I’ve done it before. I guess I just needed my team back so that I can really hit this thing full speed. I had a great workout today with one of my favorite people in the whole world, Melody!!! And I’m in therapy again, once a week, yikes! I think I need it though. I am having a really hard time this week. I can’t go into detail but lets just say Eric and I have been fighting a lot since we moved back to Santa Barbara. He was doing so well in Tahoe, but I wasn’t. I was starting to wither, like a flower, I needed more sunlight. And now that I’m back and loving it, he is starting to get grumpy and sick. Ugh! I guess we just can’t win, not for right now anyway.
I am going to start keeping a log of my food and workouts since that’s what seemed to help me lose weight last time. I want to keep it up, I want to get these fucking pounds off my body. I want to fit into a fucking cute dress every once in a while. Ok sorry about the potty mouth, sometimes I get a little carried away, and well, I enjoy talking like a sailor.
I didn’t really eat anything good for me today.
Breakfast-Acai bowl —yummmm! Lunch– non-fat cottage cheese and a pita Snack– Raw veggies Dinner– Chicken salad with beans, salsa and cheese (oops)