The Goodenough Blog

Woot!  It’s Friday, that means that tomorrow I can do whatever I want.  Ok so maybe I can do that any day.  But Saturdays are still fun.  Today I had a nice long time in the sun.  Got a little burned, not too bad.  But there is such a feeling of contentment here.  Like there is no where else in the world that I would rather be right now.  It’s kinda magical to feel that way.  It much much better than wishing I was somewhere else.

I had a nice lunch with Eric and South Coast Deli, yum!  Had a garden salad with tuna.  And then I went to workout with Mel, had a great workout, much jump roping.  I feel like I am going to really kick some butt this time.  I am really committed to working out 6 times a week, I have to be. Mel is making me try Bikram Yoga tomorrow.  Totally excited and nervous, really glad I have someone to go with.
Speaking of weight loss…I figured out today to be at a healthy weight for my height, I need to lose 60 pounds!!! 60 pounds!!! 60!!!  Not that it’s impossible, but good grief.  I really didn’t think I had that much extra weight on me.  Yikes.  But I signed up for the 805 Challenge, so I will need to work this butt off so that I don’t look like a dork on camera.  I have to weigh in on camera and let the entire world know how fat I am.  OMG!  I know this is going to be a good challenge for me and will keep me motivated.  I need the push and I think it will help me stay on my eating plan. So I think I am going to officially start tomorrow.

So here I am again, fat, tired and out of shape.  I got into such good shape last year, well, good for me anyway.  I lost 30 lbs and kept it off for most of the year.  Then Tahoe hit, I was lonely and stuck indoors for 6 months, a cocktail for disaster.  So here I am back in Santa Barbara and I have put on 10lbs from the 30 I lost.  1olbs isn’t the end of the world, but it ain’t pretty either.  I am starting to not fit into my clothes again, starting to give up.

But then it hit me, my life, my happiness and my husband’s happiness is affected by me not trying to get into shape.  I know it’s not impossible, I’ve done it before.  I guess I just needed my team back so that I can really hit this thing full speed.  I had a great workout today with one of my favorite people in the whole world, Melody!!!  And I’m in therapy again, once a week, yikes!   I think I need it though.  I am having a really hard time this week.  I can’t go into detail but lets just say Eric and I have been fighting a lot since we moved back to Santa Barbara.  He was doing so well in Tahoe, but I wasn’t.  I was starting to wither, like a flower, I needed more sunlight.  And now that I’m back and loving it, he is starting to get grumpy and sick.  Ugh!  I guess we just can’t win, not for right now anyway.

I am going to start keeping a log of my food and workouts since that’s what seemed to help me lose weight last time.  I want to keep it up, I want to get these fucking pounds off my body.  I want to fit into a fucking cute dress every once in a while.  Ok sorry about the potty mouth, sometimes I get a little carried away, and well, I enjoy talking like a sailor.

I didn’t really eat anything good for me today.

Breakfast-Acai bowl —yummmm!  Lunch– non-fat cottage cheese and a pita  Snack– Raw veggies  Dinner– Chicken salad with beans, salsa and cheese (oops)