So I have thought long and hard about what the heck i want my first blog to be about.  Am i really self-centered enough to wank about my life and expect everyone to care?  Or do I just write for me and not give a rats ass about who reads it?  But then why go to all the trouble to add pictures and links??

I think I am thinking about this way to much.  Well here is a snapshot of what I have been up to recently.  I am itchy as heck, apparently I am allergic to my emotions.  My hands and legs itch all day, no rash, just itchy.  I notice it happens every time I talk about my brother who I used to be very close to and have recently not been able to talk to.  First, the day he got out of his rehab center I had a severe panic attack.  I think I was so looking forward to him coming home and then he decided to move to Kansas City instead.  The thought of not seeing him again for a long time made me spin and have heart palpitations.  I have not fully recovered and now instead of panic attacks I just itch.  GREAT!?

I think my heart is just broken a little and I need to find something to do to occupy myself so I don’t have to think about it all the time.  Which is a great reason to start a blog, don’t you think?  (Not sure who I am talking to here)